Posts from — April 2010

I want to be more than people say that I am.  I want to be more than people think that I am.  Today I have spent time reflecting on things that have been said about me throughout my life.  Actually I have been thinking about the negative things that have been said about me either to my face or amongst others.  No I am not having a pity party nor am I feeling sorry for myself.  I am just reflecting and considering how I have changed and matured through the years and how I might continue to improve on the changes and/or feelings that I am still experiencing and dealing with as I continue moving forward in this walk of life. 

 

It is difficult to look at hurtful and not-so-nice compliments that are directed at oneself; but at the same time — I have found that it has made me stop dead in my tracks and take a good hard look at what is around me, what I have been engaged in, or what was I thinking, or where I was heading at the time that such statements were made.

 

Hurtful and spiteful remarks affect people and with me — these remarks have stayed a lifetime.  In most cases I have gravitated away from the individuals who have made the remarks, but nonetheless the words that they have spoken have had lasting effects. Like now for instance today I am reflecting on how I have changed throughout the years and how and in what ways can I continue to become a better person.  I am contemplating on how can I improve my thought process before I speak.  How can I develop a better outlook on and toward others?  How can I become more understanding?  How can I broaden my knowledge of different cultures, races, religions, etc.?  And if I have done or achieved these things, then how can I take it to the next level?

 

I have read and have come to understand that God crossed all boundaries.  He created the entire universe.  He created us in His own image in His own likeness.  I can expect no less from myself than to learn to think and act like Him — the Maker of All.  I want to be better.  I want to do better.  I want to please God; for when one pleases God — All is made right.

 

So much to work on So much to do and So little time to do it.  Sorry for those who have spoken ill of me.  God has picked me up and has meant it all to my good. His Grace is sufficient and I will rest in the LORD’s arms.

 

Psalms 94:16-19  Who stood up for me against the wicked?  Who took my side against the evildoers?  If the LORD had not helped me, I would have gone quickly to the land of silence.  I said, “I am falling” but Your constant love, O LORD, held me up.  Whenever I am anxious and worried, You comfort me and make me glad.

 

Is anyone listening?  Have you experienced anything like this during your life?  If you are reading this, please comment and share your thoughts.

 

Till the next time, this is the Voice of Joyce signing off…….